Somewhere over the rainbow
Hi guys! Long time no see! It doesn’t matter how forgiving you guys are with my absent, it still bothers me when I’m away from my blog for a week at a time.
I’ve been craving m&m cookies for the longest time. Five days a week when I skytrain home from work, I pass by Costco. And when I see Costco, I think $2 rich and creamy ice cream cones and giant m&m cookies from their bakery section. Ever since my Costco membership ended I haven’t been able to get my m&m cookie fix!
But then I thought to myself: pah! easy solution to that! i’ll just make my own cookies!!!
Little did I know, m&m’s cost a fortune. Also with such a tight schedule I found it really hard to even make time for a cookie baking session.
Geez, what does a girl have to do to get some cookies? =.=
Can we get a little personal today ? I wanna tell you guys something that’s been really bothering me.
I think I’ve mentioned this somewhere on my blog; I really really want to be a dietitian.
Thing is, it’s not easy to do that, especially not in Vancouver.
The school I go to has a professional dietetics program that is synchronized with the national standards. It’s like the only dietetics program in BC (well at least I think so) so I really really really want to make it into the program.
Problem is, the standards to get are so high. They’re so high that even if I ride on a plane and climb onto the back of my 6’4″ friend I wouldn’t be able to reach it.
You need at a 80% avg with amazing volunteer work and amazing references that will say anything but good things about you.
80% avg, ha i can forget that. Don’t know what came over me, but I didn’t study hard at all in my first year even though I knew it was important. Right now I’m at about a 70% avg.
Volunteer work?! Don’t have anything that relate to dietetics. I started to apply for a nursing home position back in January but I got lazy and never handed in. If I had done that, I could be working closely with the dietitian there by now and have over a year of relevant volunteer experience.
I’m kicking myself in the butt right now. So many things were in my control but I chose not to do anything about it.
Why didn’t I study harder?
Why would I leave my homework to accumulate for weeks before actually touching it?
Why didn’t I hand that dang application in?
I feel like I have screwed myself over for life. You only get 2 chances to apply for that program and after those two, you don’t get another one. Hundreds of people apply but they only take 3o per year. I calculated my chance, it’s nil.
Oh and it gets worst cuz I just realized I don’t even have a backup plan. The academic advisor told me to have a backup plan way back in October but I have done nothing about it. Partly because I know that dietetics is the only thing I want to be in. Unfortunately I’m so lazy I lose sight of what’s important and slacked off so I never did anything to approach that goal.
I also hate that I’m thinking about all this now. Why now? Why in the summer when I should be enjoying my time off school? Why didn’t I think about this during school when I could actually do something about it?!
The thing is, I was also kinda depressed during term one so when term two rolled along, I decided I was sick of being depressed so I let myself go and ignored all the things that made me worry, which included how I was gonna get into the program.
I hope that somewhere along the way, skies will be blue and the dreams that I dare to dream will really come true.
Sorry for the lengthy post. If you made it this far, I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Chewy M&M and Chocolate Chip Cookies
2 c + 2tbsp AP flour
1/2 tsp baking soda
1/2 tsp salt
12 tbsp unsalted butter, melted and cooled til warm
1 c packed brown sugar
1/2 c granulated sugar
1 large egg + 1 egg yolk
2 tsp vanilla
3/4 c chocolate chips
desired amount of m&ms for topping
1. Preheat oven to 325 degrees F
2. Whisk flour, baking soda, and salt.
3. Mix butter and sugar, then mix in egg, egg yolk, and vanilla until combined.
4. Add the dry ingredients gradually, mix until just combined, don’t want too much gluten now!
5. Stir in chocolate chips.
6. Roll 1/4 c of dough in hands, rip them in half and face the jagged parts up while you join the two pieces together again. Place it on a baking sheet and crowd the top of the dough with m&ms. As the cookie bakes, it’ll spread and so will the m&ms.
Source: Baking Illustrated, p. 434