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I’m Moving!

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Huge announcement today: I’m moving!

Not houses this time, I’m moving into my own website domain

I’ve always wanted to purchase my own domain for several reasons:
1) have control over the look of my blog instead of being forced to use the themes provided by wordpress.com
2) have a little piece of the internet that belongs to me and not wordpress.com

The one thing that hindered this process was choosing a blog name!

I’m not the most creative person, so I kept coming up with typical names like “the sweet shop”, “the cakery”, “crumb”, “whisk” and so on. These names were either already taken by a bajillion other bloggers and companies or they just didn’t fit what I was looking for. Because I knew I had run out of creativity, I just kept waiting and waiting for that magic moment when something brilliant will just pop up into my head.

Two years passed. Nothing happened.

The most “brilliant” blog name that I could come up with was “chocolified” but that got shot down by my friends and family faster than when I asked them if I should inject chocolate into my veins.

Back to the drawing board it was and again, I got stuck in a rut. Eventually, I had to admit to myself that I will never come up with anything creative or innovative. That’s when I took a different direction with the whole name-creating process. If I can’t be witty, I’ll just find a name that sums up what my blog will be about.

I’m quite happy with what I decided on 🙂 You will have to wait to hear what it is! Some of you may already have a few guesses as to what it is since I was being an idiot and let it slip. Whoops. 

I bought my domain last Saturday and I was both excited and relieved to be finally moving forward in my blogging. My mind is always plagued by the thought that I could be doing more with my blog and tap into its greater potential. I couldn’t do anything about it when I was in school but now that it’s summer, I finally get to take this blog to the next level and get it to what I’ve been envisioning for the past couple of years!

I’ve never worked more hard and never been more absorbed into a task. I can spend hours on my laptop just editing away and reading up on coding, plugins, advertising companies and special social media functions. At the same time, I’m also responding to a bajillion emails, setting up a bajillion accounts, buying equipment and tools for my homebased bakery (my experiment for the summer!) and working 2 part time jobs. I must thank Google Keep for helping me stay organized during this hectic time!

I can get soooo absorbed into it that I can ignore my hunger, need to pee and thirst. My chocolate intake has also decreased substantially because I need both of my hands to work on the zee blog! I know, shocking right? This is coming from a girl who refuses to put down her food to hold an umbrella. I’d rather have my food and get soaked than have no food at all. 

Setting up this blog is the only thing on my mind these days! I started with a bunch of scattered pieces but it’s all finally starting to come together. I can’t wait to share it with you all 🙂

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Here comes the waterworks

Soooo… I GOT ACCEPTED INTO DIETETICS!!!!!

I was so happy when I got my acceptance email that I started crying immediately… at work… in front of new coworkers… and I didn’t give a bleep. My friend caught the video of me and I will be forever thankful because that was probably the best moment of my life.

How weird was it for you to finally hear my voice? Ahaha! Was it as you imagined it to be?

Two thoughts after I watched the video:

1. I need to lay off the cake and cookies.

2. 20/5?!?!?! What was I thinking?!?!? It was more like 200000000000000000/5

You guys were some of the first people to hear about my anxiety and nervousness about applying to dietetics. About two years ago, I wrote this post where I fully expressed my self-loathing and feelings of unpreparedness. I hated myself for wasting time and not doing more (volunteering/working etc) to get into the program.

Over these past two years, I kept looking back to that post to remind myself of how bad it felt to be angry at myself. It served as a strong reminder and it was my fuel to keep going because I didn’t want to feel regret ever again. You guys gave me a lot of support and good advice which helped me get through a lot of struggles. Thank you. So so so so so much. I’m really glad to be able to share this good news with you.

I’ve been thinking of ways to reward myself for accomplishing this long-time goal of mine. Cookbook? Nope. Valrhona chocolate? Nah. New set of glass mixing bowls? No. Clothes? Nuh-uh. Not even a new KitchenAid mixer will make me happy because I realized I want something more than materialistic objects.

This ‘something’ that I have been craving is self-worth. For years I have been telling myself that I’m ‘not skinny enough’, ‘not tall enough’, ‘not smart enough’, ‘not pretty’, ‘not deserving of dietetics because there are probably people out there who are so much better’, and the list goes on. I have deprived myself of acknowledgement and compliments because I was afraid that too much confidence would get to my head. I constantly put myself down to stay grounded and continually work towards being better. I was my own and only competitor. I never let myself enjoy any successes because I am a strong believer that there is always more to learn. It’s been really tiring because I never gave myself the chance to stop and look at how far I’ve come. For me, it was always go go go go go, do more, see more, be more. All I want to do is now is to sit back and enjoy the view from here before I start climbing again. 

I’m crying as I’m writing this right now because it feels so liberating to finally tell myself that I AM good enough. I set a goal to become a dietitian, I overcame the pressures of competition, I didn’t let my skeptical parents bring me down, and I thrived through the difficulties of balancing school, volunteering and work. Most importantly, I never lost sight of my goal, even though it took me 3 years to get here.

I did it. I’m finally on my way to become a dietitian and I’ve never been happier. 

 

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